Clúb Sutíl

Estoy Aqui!

2008-04-14T16:58:00.000-07:00

I am in eSpain (as one particularly charming spaniard used to call it.)

Day four of my Madrid adventure is in the bag, and so am I partially, as 2 AM arrives. I've actually been quite demure for the Madrid lifestyle, and have totally wrapped my must see list of Prado, Thyssen-Bornemisza, Reina Sofia and Santiago Bernabeu. Have done my share of bar hopping as well, but no clubbing. I don't think I'm a clubber. Did get an invite, but I still don't think I'm club material. Sure, I'll get dressed up and flirt with people of all nationalities, as much as language allows, but I'm pretty sure my dancing days are behind me.

On the way plus side, wine is crazy cheap here and usually comes accompanied by cheese or olives. I could totally live off this diet, but I don't know what that might do to my health regime. (assuming of course what I do counts as a regime. I don't think I've had anything fried for a day or two now. Does that count?)

More details to follow at more sober and reasonable hours. Such as, they totally expanded la Reina, and it is beyond awesome! Also of note, Americans can be irritating and the English are quite snarky. Who knew? Plus, it is not nearly warm enough, but with enough effort, I've managed to get a sunburn. Pretty sure I could accomplish that anywhere in the world. My pallor knows no bounds.

So simple a couple of highly educated tech professionals can do it

2008-03-27T15:01:00.000-07:00

The trusty iBook has been cranky for a couple of months now, and it became apparent I had reached the limits on the hard drive. Since this impeded my ability to purchase new music, steal music and copy music for others, it had to be remedied. Also, since I am taking a work/pseudo vacation, I should probably have a more or less functioning laptop should my services actually be required.

Naturally, I turned to SuperJoe for advice on my next steps. Certainly I couldn't leave something as critical as laptop maintenance to the professionals at Apple. He clearly intimated that he knew how to replace the drive if I just went about purchasing the correct one. I did the research, bought the drive and ventured out for my first visit to the MS campus.

Well, SuperJoe slightly mislead me in that he has not taken apart a laptop before, and we're both coming at this with little more than directions online and some tools we had to run out and buy. Apple really does not want you opening those puppies yourself. There are a million tiny screws of varying size holding it together and they have to be taken out and put back in a specific order. It totally required removing two layers from the bottom before forcing off the inside layer around the keyboard. Force was the operative word at many points in the process. To be fair, it might not have required all the layers be removed, but invoked a bit of trial and error.

Considering the amount of very physical prying, bending and outright brute force, I was sure it was the end of my iBook. After a few hours, some calming drinks and a fair amount of cursing we came out with only three extra screws and an host of dings and digs on the chassy.

I basically held my breath until it came to life at home. She's ALIVE! We are apparently geniuses! I don't have to buy a new computer!

The next challenge will be migrating the old data from the backup, but I've got over 100 GB of untarnished space at my disposal. Success!

Sutíl y Sola

2008-03-24T17:38:00.000-07:00

I may not have mentioned that I am the last of my college girlfriends to remain unmarried. It seems like this should bother me, and yet, I'm rather enjoying the single life of late. I have even been dating, like actually going on dates. Sure, this shouldn't be significant, and yet, it's new to me. Maybe I'm maturing.

Heh.

Some of the guys have been incredibly nice. Maybe too nice. While I've been having a delightful time splashing about in the dating pool, I have not met anyone who inspires me to hop out of it. Not sure if it's a lack of chemistry (despite the fact that I might be a biochemist magnet) or if I'm just not ready to settle down. Either way, I occasionally feel a bit guilty. There is nothing wrong with these guys, and yet, I compulsively eschew commitment.

Sure, it's more fun to suggest it's them, but the problem undoubtedly lies with me. Don't think I'll quit trying though. It's fun, and someone else is buying the drinks.

Recent developments

2008-03-24T16:39:00.000-07:00

In the spirit of providing updates with some measure of timeliness, I will be, in the near future, going to Spain! With a brief stop in London! And most of this trip will be on the companies dime, so I am stretching it out to milk that expensed airfare for all it is worth!

(Note - I am so excited about this you can actually hear the exclamation marks at the ends of my sentances. Sometimes I even speak in all caps.)

It so happens that our European sales teams will be having some kind of partner wooing conference in Marbella, and it was determined they would let me attend if I did all the planning. This is fantastic, since usually I have to do all the planning anyway and don't get to go to the fun locations and posh hotels. Whether this is their view of a little bonus for me or if this event is actually going to be a way bigger pain in the ass than I've assumed, it matters not. I am going to Spain where I shall dust off my atrociously neglected Spanish skills try touring as an adult and not a hostel staying student!

Actually, I will be travelling first class for most of the trip. The folks have set me up in a 4 star hotel in downtown Madrid for my 5 days of holiday time before I get down to "working". Five days in Madrid! At least one whole day of my time in Madrid is promised to seeing Real Madrid play on their home turf, Bernabeu Stadium, as well as touring the stadium and possibly stalking most of the defensive line (Iker, Fabio, etc). The rest of the week will be spent more on the cultural side with museums and tapas bars. Lots of tapas bars.

I'll polish off my two weeks abroad with a few days in London for no real reason whatsoever. Sure it's one of the most exciting cities in the world with a host of museums I haven't seen yet and new tourist attractions since I last passed through in the late '90s. That is totally why I'm going. There is no way I planned this stop in my trip just for the vague hope of crossing paths with my latest work crush. Sure developing a work crush on the charming sales guy from the UK does impede flirtation options, but it also takes some of the sting out of the fact that evidence suggests this is not a reciprocal relationship. Anyway, I'm guessing every bar in London has cider on tap, so I just might be able to keep myself entertained regardless.

Viva Clúb Sutíl!

Regardless of the motivations for my route, this will be a most excellent holiday. It embraces my recent bout of Anglophilia and relatively new found passion for fúbol, and all I really have to pay for is the hotel in London and my entertainment costs outside of Marbella. Fantastico! Sadly, Ani was unable to join me on the Euro romp, so hopefully I won't get into to much trouble unchaperoned. Ha!

Old News

2008-03-24T16:15:00.001-07:00

A dear friend recently pointed out that I am a terrible blogger. This is of course completely true. Posts are few, and infrequent and I tend to write about nonsense.

Well, here is an update fresh from last December. I finished my sweater! It was a huge success, with the exception of it turned out at least a size or two too small. No matter! My resourceful and opportunistic nature kicked in, and the much toiled over sweater (vest to be more specific) was repurposed as Mom's Christmas gift. It fits her perfectly and is made of some rather impressive heavy wool yarn to keep her from forever being chilled.

Here is the fantastic and tiny garment with me squeezed into it. On me it seems to give a decidedly beer wench affect. Ultimately, I had to either give it to Mom or take up yodeling.

Monstrous Inconvenience

2007-11-06T17:55:00.000-08:00

I walked home from my knitting class last night as usual. I have nearly completed my first sweater, and it looks AWESOME. (To be modeled here in the near future) Since the class takes place at Hill Top Yarn, aptly named for its location atop Queen Anne, it’s usually an easy walk down the hill, over the bridge, quick stop in the bar so Alyona can make fun of me for knitting, and then safely home. However, upon reaching the Nickerson Saloon (not bar destination previously mentioned), I’m met by the spectacle of the Fremont bridge raised for repairs, for the night. This would leave my only routes home as routing all the way to the Ballard Bridge, back up the imposing north side of Queen Anne to trudge over Aurora or just swimming the canal. I chose the hill as the shortest in distance that kept me dry, and was rather impressed I made it up Fulton Street without passing out winded.

And thus my usual 20 minute walk turned more of an hour hike. Not the most fortuitous start to the week, but probably good on the exercise front.

Fremont Bridge holds a certain prehistoric monster aura when raised on a clear night. Perhaps raising it disturbs the dragons or trolls that call it home. Certainly smaller trolls than live under Aurora, but certainly something creepy has to slink away during the nocturnal maintenance that messes with my trip home.

A lot of very little

2007-11-02T13:36:00.000-07:00

It would seem I quit blogging in the spring. I’m fairly certain this has gone entirely unnoticed by the public at large, but here goes one more shot before abandoning the Club for good. Since I have an excessive number of leisure hours with which I do nothing productive, perhaps I should busy myself with something that at least engages the brain cells, rather than frittering them away. There is also a distant chance someone might pay me to write something, and I should probably make sure I remember how to put together words in something more complicated than a corporate speak email or travel itinerary.

How to start? I’m opting for the random wrap up of what I’ve been doing in the last six months or so.

Since last March I…

Went to Mexico. Turned 30. Since it happened in Mexico, I’m uncertain as to whether I’ll count this birthday; though the trip totally rocked. Got a tan. Well, first a severe sunburn followed by a tan, which I still have to some degree because my skin is quite delicate and holds on to any kind of impression for a crazy long time; see also scars and bruises. Went blond again. Some really sassy highlights that I might get done again because I think I make a decent icy blond. Or at least frosty blond. Was in yet another wedding. Survived reading a poem, and thank goodness they aren’t the type to go in for videography. Possibly developed a drinking problem. Ok, more likely just continued to indulge a possible drinking problem. Not the day drinking and endangering others type problem. I’m sure I’m the only one at risk from my ill advised consumption. Just a pattern of over indulgence on the weekends that should probably be alarming. Am sure my mother would be appalled. I try not to worry her about my self destructive streak to often. Made questionable decisions regarding men. Frequently aided by previously mentioned overindulgence. Survived, despite what the Christian school upbringing and horror films always suggested. Had an oddly high number of house guests which I’m sure encouraged me to be better about my housekeeping. Houseguests included my oft estranged sister. Her impact on my housekeeping was negligible. Got a Roomba. Love him! Much better than cat or dog in the pet department. Took another stab at fish ownership. Fabio is still alive four months later, and has shown no signs of ill health. Might not actually be cursed. Took a positive career step in taking over company intranet design and updating. No one noticed. Got all new bosses at work. Mixed bag as far as personalities, but that’s the nature of the EA gig. Still thinking I should get out of the EA gig. Have no idea what else I’m truly qualified to do. Will continue to make the company intranet, which no one gives a damn about, my own little kingdom of work stuff I don’t despise. Am working on the mental preparedness necessary to buy a house. Still edgy about the commitment. Still playing soccer. No noticeable skill increase. Have gotten back into knitting. Might actually complete a sweater this week. Gained back weight shed before Mexico trip.

Now back to my regularly scheduled progress into boozy spinsterhood.

Ladies night and phallic entertainment

2007-03-14T14:00:00.000-07:00

It was a girl’s night out in Belltown for Abby’s birthday. Since I will soon be the last unattached gal in my crowd, this centered more on chick bonding then boy hunting. So be it, I shall man wrangle solo.

The quality girl time evolved copious amounts of delicious food and wine, embarrassing our waiter with unabashedly frank relationship experiences and finishing up the evening with rooftop cigars.

I’ve never taken to smoking, which is just as well since I have enough vices. The cigars were fun though; perhaps because inhaling is discouraged. The mental image of me hanging out with stogy is particularly hilarious, so I don’t see this becoming a habit even without the prohibitions of cost and poor health. I could however attempt a badass demeanor at my next poker game. It might distract from the incredibly uneven play and nonexistent poker face.

Abby's shot of us prepped to hit the town turned out far better than my fuzzy, cam phone rooftop attempt at the end of the night.

Night out in Belltown

2007-03-11T00:29:00.001-08:00

Cigars on they roof for Ab's birthday

Incredible shrinking woman

2007-03-08T13:31:00.000-08:00

The newly discovered passion for soccer, combined with birthday plans in Mexico involving a lot of beach time, has resulted in exercise and fitness becoming a top priority for me. If this had kicked in sooner maybe I would be more successfully burning up the singles scene, but I’ll have to contend myself with just being toned at 30. So far the scale is refusing to budge in the numbers game, but it would seem that some inches of me have gone missing. To wit, this last weekend I was able to resurrect a pile of clothes that had been given up for lost.

My closet cleaning process is a long one, and it doesn’t happen nearly often enough. If something doesn’t fit, yet I still like it, it gets relocated to a drawer or box in the closet, so as to stop taunting me with its current unsuitable state. Then after some unknown period of time, these hidden garments are revisited to test once again for fit. Generally, there is no coming back from exile. On the rare occasion it has occurred, the triumph of once again fitting into the garment is tempered by it being hopelessly out of fashion.

I am reticent to do much clothing shopping until the desired birthday size is achieved, so this interim infusion of slightly used but not hopelessly outdated clothes is a welcome break from just embracing the baggy look. Not as much fun as buying all new stuff, but satisfying all the same. Plus, I’m shrinking! Yay!

GOL!

2007-02-22T16:49:00.000-08:00

It would seem I have been quite woeful in the updating of this blog. Since I perform these updates primarily for my own edification and in keeping with my new year’s resolution, it is all the more shameful for this to be the first post in the month of February.

Once this failing became evident, I felt pressured to come back with something good, something worth waiting for, however, nothing of note came up. (Though, if it did, I’m going with the story of it being either excessively dull or too juicy for public consumption in an attempt to build an air of mystery.) Time passed, and it needed to be even better.

Well, naturally, nothing big happened, and I’m as devoid of deep thoughts as ever, thus here is the gripping recounting of my first soccer goal, as an adult, possibly ever.

It was Monday night, and we were in the sixth game of a thus far 1 and 5 season. We were actually ahead, which tends to lift team spirits overall, an unfamiliar sensation. It being the end of a holiday weekend, I was gamely playing with a headache and slight hangover from having just a bit too much fun Sunday night.

Some average size dude from the opposing team was bringing the ball down the boards toward our goal, and in a surprising show of competence, I managed to strip it away and stay with it on the other side of the challenge. Suddenly, it’s me at midfield in a situation clearly calling dribbling down the pitch. Not a strong point for my game. I managed to stay ahead of the pursuing opposition for a few steps, pass off to one of my own team mates with some precision and prepare to move back to my defensive responsibilities. A job adequately done.

Then said team mate ends up passing back to me around midfield despite the constant evidence that passing to me on purpose rarely produces positive results. I booted the ball back down to the end, where, had there been no goalie present the ball would have likely bounced ineffectually off the wall, a few inches from entering the goal. However, the goalie was there and promptly scooped the ball up. I was in full retreat to provide defense when Andrea sent out an astonished shout that I scored, and everyone began trotting back to kickoff positions. It would seem that the goalie bobbled the ball once collecting it, dropping it into his own goal.

Sure, it’s a stretch to claim the goal as my own, but I’m taking it. Even if I didn’t vastly prefer sticking to defense, it is unlikely my most useful soccer skills of being an obstacle or running a step or two behind incoming opposition would ever result in a goal. Thus, I’m taking it. I am now a goal scorer. Perhaps someday another flash of luck and happenstance might even lead to me being a scorer of goals.

UNMATCHED

2007-01-25T17:35:00.000-08:00

I would like to say I'm bad at dating, but it would seem necessary to actually go on dates before rating my success level. To this end, I occasionally consider entering the online personals realm, but I can never quite get over my hang-ups.

To preface, I have no doubt that meeting people can be highly effective and satisfying. In all practicality, the internet is just another public space in which you can meet up with friends and strangers alike. I have no problem with online dating, in theory; I just can’t do it myself, yet.

First, I’m not ready to give up the first impression experience when meeting someone in person. Sure, deception is practically standard in dating; only revealing layers of truth over time, and it can be done as effectively in person as remotely. I still hold to the belief that some form of twitchy, shifty, calloused, distant, clingy, creepy behavior is more likely to slip through when directly interacting with someone than when masked by the text medium.

I’m also reticent to submit my image and personal details to an infinitely replicable and editable medium. Though I have caved somewhat with MySpace and Blogger accounts, I haven’t yet found my profile info scraped and redistributed on any alternative adult sites I didn’t submit to, as happened to a friend of mine who suddenly found out his image was being used to draw customers to a gay personals site.

And the current, decisive reason I choose to steer clear of the internet for my socializing is my rage over the Match.com logo. With the extensive advertising push in the ramp up to Valentine’s Day, this offensive little logo has been foisted into my awareness. It consists of figures that are usually used to designate men’s and women’s public bathrooms. The male figure stands there, strait as ever while the female cuddles up against him kicking her rounded heal behind her in blissful glee. Yes, the man stands impassively while the woman vies for his attentions and clings. This gross generalization of dating stereotypes only adds to the pains of interpersonal miscommunication and insults half of Match’s customer base.

The Eagle

2007-01-20T15:29:00.001-08:00

Opening weekend @ the SAM sculpture park

Is it really so hard to spell ‘pussy’?

2007-01-11T16:33:00.000-08:00

I have inherited the new work responsibility of acting as primary media contact for the marketing department. Basically, this means that when anyone fills out the website form, it’s directed to my email. Thus, I get a lot of spam. An army of bots are out there automatically filling in the form with solicitations for insurance, erectile dysfunction medication and lots of porn. I only have to scan through them enough to ensure there aren’t any legitimate media inquiries, so I get to read the brief descriptions of what is likely contained in the masses of links so considerately sent my way.

I’m not sure if I’m more appalled that someone has actually produced dirty Kim Possible images or by the atrocious grammar skills of adult material purveyors.

Yet another day I failed to wear adequate footwear

2007-01-11T16:13:00.001-08:00

The wind let up and now it snows, sort of. It's been a fun winter for the Emerald City.

Resolved

2007-01-05T11:14:00.000-08:00

The year 2007 has started with a hangover, promptly followed by a sore throat and cold. Or, more accurately, it started in the midst of earning said hangover and progressed from there. In spite of this less than spectacular beginning, I am maintaining optimism for the coming months.

In keeping with the rosy outlook, I shall record my resolutions in this (moderately) public forum, so at least I might be shamed into adhering to them in the face of (moderate) public scrutiny.

1) Read more.
Since I am attempting to participate in two separate book clubs, I should be able to tackle at least two reasonably meaningful books a month, and throw in some pleasure reading besides. I like to read, and it is ridiculous how easy it is to push books to the back of the priority list when free time becomes available.

2) Determine a career path & actually make a plan.
I’m entirely too old and educated to still not know what I want to do even 5 years from now. This will take assessment, which I don’t enjoy all that much, and actual planning, which I am fairly decent at. Note: I’m not fully expecting to be “on” said path by the end of the year. I’ve determined the resolutions should be achievable goals, or else you just get fed up with even making them.

3) Write more.
There was a time I imagined I would be a writer, and there have been occasions when I might have demonstrated an actual knack with words. However, I have not put time and effort in this direction since school. Maybe with some committed effort and time I’ll find my voice. Or I could just discover I should stick with the consumption rather than production of words. Either way, better to know.

4) Get smaller.
Last year, and probably every year previous, I set out to lose weight. It’s the perpetual chick resolution. Finally, last year I succeeded in sticking to a solid fitness routine that has resulted in my being as healthy as I can remember being. I just didn’t get any smaller. If anything, I gained a few pounds. Sure, we can play the muscle vs. fat game of rational, but I haven’t given up the dream of actually taking up less space. I’ve got a pedometer, a gym membership, soccer gear and a diet plan that basically centers around cutting out alcohol. If I can’t see progress within the next month I’ll just have to start considering surgery. (mostly kidding)

Can't believe it was 33 degrees out

2006-12-18T04:00:00.000-08:00

Waiting for the shuttle as 4 AM approaches
I have seen both sides of 3 AM this wknd & I assure you this is the wrong side to be on.

Future cat burglar

2006-12-17T19:32:00.000-08:00

The second story window through which i successfully broke into Anika's condo after the keys were locked inside the car inside the locked garage.
We are just lucky my flight was cancelled and my mad ninja skills were on game.

Multimedia message

2006-12-16T22:13:00.000-08:00

Greetings from Skybar

And this is why I came to CA in December?

2006-12-16T12:24:00.000-08:00

Overcast in LA
Figures
The Ghetty still looks gorgeous

The beautiful people

2006-12-15T13:10:00.000-08:00

Lunch al fresco @ the mall & Ani sporting a new do

Misplaced in Beverly Hills

2006-12-15T10:17:00.000-08:00

I’m vacationing down in the LA area, visiting the twins. For this trip it means hanging out in a posh hotel and being surrounded by impossibly tempting shopping. While this promises to be a substantial financial drain, it’s a rarity that’s totally worth it.

December in California is funny. It’s like the most perfect June days up in Seattle weather wise, and it does look like some of the trees actually do lose their leaves. Christmas decorations look somewhat out of place on the bright, warm days, and I can’t help but notice the distinct lack of snowman representations.

Off to explore the alien landscape with some drool inducing window shopping, star chasing and perhaps house gazing in the Beverly Hills residential sector.

Sleeping late & leftovers

2006-12-15T08:51:00.000-08:00

Morning in Beverly Hills w/ breakfast in bed
Livin' large

Perfect day

2006-12-14T13:24:00.000-08:00

Vacation in the sun
Long overdue

New toy!

2006-10-11T13:17:00.000-07:00

Not the action figure, the camera.

I have waited so long to qualify for a phone upgrade. Then there was the question of which phone would make me happy, once qualification occured. At last, it has come together flawlessly.

The Sony Ericsson w810i makes me terrifically happy. It's not unlike my first Ericsson, so cruely wrested from me as I departed a job, but with way more bells and whistles. I have even read the manual in the hopes of taking advatage of the coolest features.

Yay me!

2006-09-21T16:58:00.000-07:00

CREAKY

I joined the company soccer team, not expecting to be a star or anything, but with the idea of having some fun and exercise. Mission accomplished. Although we were thoroughly tromped in our fist game by a superior team (apparently half the team is moonlighting at City College after being on the UW track team), but I ran around faster than I can ever remember doing, and didn’t feel completely useless while playing a heroic (if I’m being modest) 90 minutes due to a shortage of female subs. My legs were almost cramped beyond use on the way home, and I hobbled for two days after, but it pain positively earned.

It would seem my exertions followed me into this week without my realizing. I thought I was back up to par, even venturing to work out two days before this week’s game. While my muscled seemed more or less ready for another evening of over exertion, my ankles were not. I was a bit gimpy from the get go, and was attempting more of a cripple’s hop pursuit style by the end of the game.

Today I’m sporting a full on limp with both ankle wrapped in Ace bandages unearthed from the depths of my household med supplies. It will be the height of irony if I end up with some kind of long term sports injury. There are no shortage of adjectives to describe me, but athletic has never really fell on that list.

On the other hand, I had a great game. Sure we lost stupendously yet again, but my personal level of play was much improved, if perhaps more slowly executed. I successfully stripped oncoming opponents of ball time and again, without grievous fouls, and even occasionally redirected in the appropriate up field direction. Plus, I took no less than four direct shots to the body, each leaving a distinct soccer ball shaped mark, which successfully deflected shots on goal. Perhaps I will see if they can’t get ‘human shield’ put on my jersey before the end of the season.

2006-08-28T16:42:00.000-07:00

28 HOURS IN DAYTON

Due to some friends seeking their future in the rural back of beyonds, and my loving them in spite of it, this last weekend found me in the among the burning embers of Dayton. That would be the somewhat lesser known Dayton, WA, population 2,700.

Wildfire season is not being kind to this little agrarian corner of Washington state, so despite the peaceful nature of the quaint town (though I’ve been told it claims citydom) it felt a little more like I’d spent two days in a bar pre-ban instead of the pollution free air one comes to expect when you venture so far off the freeway.

The trip didn’t start out quite as planned, though it’s not like I didn’t expect morning to come hard when I went out to see a friends band the night before. Nursing a well earned hangover, I was rather proud of making it from consciousness to highway speeds within 30 minutes. Downtown is so peaceful at 8 am Saturday morning, it was with a slight pang I sped past it unimpeded by traffic.

It was in North Bend I made the rude discovery that one can’t get a Big Mac at 9 AM. I was tempted to debate this travesty with the squeaky voiced window boy, but as this appeared to be the most efficient McD’s I’ve every seen, they were quick to appease me with a handful of additional hash browns to keep me from tying up their system and messing with fulfillment minutes. Duly noted for the future.

While I didn’t get to see any actual blazes, and only occasional glimpses of firefighters, the sky started looking hazy by the time I reached Othello (mid way there).

The dual purpose of the trip was for my best girlfriend’s birthday/housewarming, and it seemed to be successful on both sides. I thought I was rolling in a bit late, but I was actually first to arrive and get the grand tour. I had seen their little chunk of equity a couple months ago when I signed on for a laborious weekend of ceiling painting (two story vaulted, and I just don’t want to talk about it) and they have worked absolute wonders. It is adorable, and can imagine being deliriously happy enjoying a home of one’s own, until the nagging realization that the nearest decent sushi spot was at least four hours away. The color scheme is creative and warm, and it’s a perfect space for two people.

Other party members arrived throughout the day. Snacks were everywhere, and drinks were almost magically refilled, making it an ideal way to pass a hot afternoon avoiding the sun. My eyes started tearing up from the smoke, but some drops more or less cleared that up.

For dinner we ventured all the way to Waitsburg (nine miles) to the WhoopemUp Café, and it was awesome. The mushroom soup was almost literally orgasmic. So good. If I hadn’t already ordered what turned out to be a smashing entree, I would have requested they just roll the whole pot out to me.

By Sunday morning the smoked had rolled in thickly again, and the sense that I was camping nearly a badly maintained fire was. We rolled on down to an odd A frame shaped diner for the most delightful greasy breakfast. I went with the special hash browns with gravy. It’s the ham that makes it special. So greasy, with minimal nutritional value, and hit the spot perfectly.

At 4 pm I was doing my best not speed excessively on the way home. It’s at least 4.5 hours door to door, avoiding stops, and for an activity that involves no actual activity, it’s quite a draining drive.

So my weekend consisted of a lot of driving, good friends, fun conversation, delicious food and plenty of drinks. Not a bad way to start wrapping up summer.

2006-08-17T11:59:00.000-07:00

MAKE IT WORK

Oh my goodness! I can’t believe I’m just discovering that Tim Gunn, a genius element on Project Runway, has a blog. He is as hilarious in his write up and critiques of the designers and their work as he is on the show, only with less editing.

It appears he has a podcast as well. I am so subscribing to that.

2006-08-16T17:10:00.000-07:00

DO YOUR OWN LAUNDRY

There was a possible bomb threat at the port today, which is close enough to my office to raise alarm. It’s good to know that there was ultimately nothing threatening and that procedure seemed to go smoothly from detection to inspection of the possible problem, but I want to know why we ever let the container into the port at all. The container was flagged due to irregularities in the reported inventory of oily rags.

Why are we importing oily rags? Do we not produce enough oily rags of our own? Is there some call for oily rags that I’m blissfully ignorant of? Do we perhaps offer an intercontinental laundry service, shipping out freshly cleaned rags?

I’m just saying, I would have flagged that cargo as suspect well before the x-ray.

2006-08-16T16:46:00.000-07:00

NORMAL I TELL YOU

Slim or lithe have never been words one might describe me with. Despite my tendency to bruise easily, I’ll never be mistaken for a delicate flower. I’ve accepted, and even attempt to embrace, my plight as a voluptuous gal, though the media’s evil scheme to undermine women’s body confidence isn’t entirely unsuccessful.

In actuality I fall pretty solidly across the national averages. Average height, weight, shoe size and hair color. Unfortunately, as has been a common theme in recent press, these averages aren’t exactly healthy. Despite my mediocre physical make up, it has been alarming to refer to national institutes of health charts putting me in the obese category. While feelings about body image might fluctuate, that’s a term I’ve never imposed on my psyche.

And today I shall celebrate another measure of my normalcy. A good health program within the office has brought a barrage of diet and exercise literature, the occasional healthy snacks and weight measurements for both personal information and study data. It has been satisfying to find out that my diet and exercise routine of late is within acceptable levels, but even better than that, I have a NORMAL body fat percentage! I am normal! The little, digital machiney thing says so, and for that, I do a little dance of joy. I guess I’ll even keep going to the gym.

2006-08-16T16:21:00.000-07:00

COMPULSORY OR OPTIONAL

A recent Salon article looks into the fact that apparently American’s have fewer friends. This of course raises the issues what constitutes a friend, what’s keeping us from them and is the new rise in solitary lifestyles a choice or circumstances.

I don’t feel I suffer from a shortage of friends, though some of my best confidants have scattered across distances and life situations, leaving a bit of a void in my localized social circle. While I value having quality time to myself, such time has been in abundance of late. It seems comforting to know I’m not alone in my situation even if it isn’t entirely by conscious choice.

2006-08-15T16:29:00.000-07:00

TIS THE SEASON

I must admit that over the years I have absorbed more than one interest from the boys in my life. The first boyfriend was obsessed w/ Alice in Chains, and could mimic them well enough to impress my moody college freshman sensibilities. Another taught me all I know of colloquial Spanish and left me with a wistful fondness of muted cigarette smoke covered in breath mints. The latest hobby achieved by osmosis is football. To be fair, that one had several seasons to imbed in my psyche, but now I find myself actually counting down to even preseason games and tracking Seahawks injury status. Though I refuse to be sucked into the stat madness that is fantasy football. I just feel like it takes one out of the game.

Exposure to sports is not new to me, since my dad was an avid fan of every season’s offerings and I got to tag along to a multitude of intramural activities w/ him about town as a tot, so I don’t have to play the dumb girl role in figuring out what’s happening, most of the time. I’ve also watched enough pro sports to know which ones I like, and which I will only watch when bored in a bar. Football is in, hockey has moments but is much better live, baseball and basketball are mind numbing, and I refuse to recognize golf as a legitimate sport.

Then there’s soccer. I can probably draw my earliest appreciation of the sport to the perpetually secretly smoking Spaniard, who took me to my first pro soccer match in Valencia. It was an awesome game, with fans going crazy before players even hit the field and he let me keep his team scarf that I wear to this day. However, this summer’s World Cup combined with an exhibition game between Real Madrid and DC United coming to town opened a whole new passion for me. Add in a number of incredibly hot players, and there are few sports I find more enjoyable over a nice cold hard cider backed by the din of hooligans gathered in mass.

With school well behind me, there has been little left to mark the passing from summer to fall beyond the weather. Now, Seahawk’s preseason starts in August and the Euro pro leagues get rolling in September. I’ll miss the sun, but bar time just got a lot more entertaining.

2006-08-12T03:03:00.000-07:00

SOLA, YET SUFFICIENT

I like to go out at night when the four walls of my apartment begin to fold in on me. I refuse to stay in solely because I lack companions to go out with, so over time I’ve developed a report at with my local bar of choice. It’s practically around the corner, so it makes venturing out at will easy as pie. It didn’t take long to be recognized at my pub of choice, but it is only recently the staff actively interact on my behalf. I hardly have to order a drink when I role in on weekend evenings, and I’ve even been bailed out from a few over eager suitors by the bar staff, earning my undying affections.

For this evening's adventures I did find was a collection of people who have also made connections with this bar due to living in the area. Sometimes the appeal of Cheers becomes all to clear in the draw of the bar one can call home. All in all, a fun evening, well worth the venturing out in the first place. Can’t really ask for more as a single girl on the town these days.

2006-08-11T10:21:00.000-07:00

SANS PLANS

The air smells fishy tonight. It has for the last couple of days. Not the alley behind a seafood restaurant fishy, but that faint seashore smell you find near docks or beaches when the seaweed is drying. Considering it’s a port city, the seaside scent isn’t unusual, but I only notice it occasionally. I’m not sure if it’s when the air is still or if the wind is just blowing from a certain direction, but I do like it. I’m not much of a water person, but I enjoy the effects of living on the sound. The weather, the relaxed pace and the occasional smells.

It’s another Friday night of me trying to figure out what to do and lamenting my non-existent phone-a-friend list. Started the evening getting most of the way through a library book that I find myself identifying with a bit much. The unsettling oddity being that it’s borderline Lad Lit and the lead character is quite moody and depressed, despite signs of measurable success, going through the clichéd ‘what have I been doing with my life’ shtick. Could be just my current mood, but it’s disturbing how much I’m identifying with the many intentions to call people that go unrealized and the overall loss of connection with one’s own life.

I’m tempted to just whole up w/ a couple of movies for the rest of the night, but I think I might venture at least as far as the local. Since I ran into some of the bar staff on my contemplative stroll back from the coffee shop, and they’re my primary neighborhood acquaintances, I might as well close out the night in my customary location. Might as well maintain the connections I do have.

2006-08-08T16:57:00.000-07:00

ON THE PROWL

I’ve been ‘the single girl’ for well over a year now. Since I was ‘the girl whose boyfriend never went anywhere with her’ for far longer than recommended, it didn’t seem to affect interactions within my social circle. However, maintaining a year plus of solitary status is starting to show wear.

There are many occasions where one is expected to be paired, like dinner parties, weddings and Sunday morning breakfasts. It seems evenings out sans date are acceptable as long as one is accompanied by a circle of friends. (A current lacking in localized pals leads to my pathetically holding down a barstool trying to not look morose, but that’s another post all together.) As I’ve no intention shutting myself off from the world just because of my shameful singlehood, and I’ve proven entirely inept at rustling up casual dates thus far, I’ve been flaunting the two-by-two requirements with abandon. In addition to serving as the third, fifth or eleventh wheel about town, I’ve become the highly suspect, single vamp lurking dangerously around the fringes of the wedding party.

I swear I’m just happy to take part in the couple’s happy day and honored to be considered among their intimate friends and family. I do not have designs on any tenuously available groomsmen, and it’s truly OK if I leave the reception as solo as I arrived. My penchant for daring necklines is not to be taken as a sign of aggression. They are just very flattering, and I wouldn’t be opposed to meeting new, handsome people, while looking my best.

2006-08-03T11:54:00.000-07:00

37/38

I qualified to donate blood again!

It was a close call in the Bloodmobile today. After the drop didn’t sink on the first run, the spin test spit out the results of 37 in one and 38 in the other. I very little idea of what these numbers mean beyond qualifying me to give up a pint and reminding me that I should get back to regularly taking my multivitamin. I believe the minimum is 38, so I totally squeaked by.

Then there was the trouble with me being a slow bleeder again. Not nearly the man handling and poking around of the last draw, but we’ll have to wait and see what kind of bruising occurs. It took over 20 minutes to squeeze out a pint, but I shall not be denied my success.

It seemed pretty crowded in there today, with a wait to get a bench, so I hope it’s a good collection day over all. I still don’t know what my blood type is. I’m pretty sure I should have received a card in the mail, so maybe I need to sort through the mountain of mail on my table more thoroughly this week.

2006-07-30T16:41:00.000-07:00

KINDA CREEPY

There’s this guy I see on my bus route relatively frequently who sets me on edge. He’s not really my cup of tea and is on the short side, but I frequently catch him smiling at me. I cannot describe why this makes me uneasy, since on the face of it, there’s nothing at all wrong with being friendly with strangers on the bus. There’s just a vibe about him. Some kind of sociopathic, lives in his mother’s basement and catalogues an extensive collection of dryer lint in his spare time air around him. I have no basis for this entirely unfair assessment, but that’s how I read him, despite exchanging only brief greetings on a couple of occasions.

Now there he is, in my corner coffee shop, smiling at me while I’m trying to look busy and deeply engrossed in my iPhoto collection. Sure he was here when I got here, and beyond the ubiquitous furtive grinning, he hasn’t made any move to invade my Sunday afternoon peace. Of all the people to cross over from the world of my work week commute to my weekend leisure world, it would have to be the short, kinda creepy dude.

Yep, the antisocial tendencies run deep.

2006-07-30T16:27:00.000-07:00

CATCHING UP

I went on vacation. Then I was really busy. Then I was excessively lazy, and a month went by. Considering no one really reads this disorganized mess, it’s not that much of a hardship. It was a pretty full month, though some of it I’m just as happy to not chronicle.

Weather wise, we went from inclimate weather over the fourth, and consequently my lakeside vacation, to a record-breaking heat wave nationwide that sapped me of the energy to do anything more than sit very still and sip iced beverages for hours on end. Strangely enough, the heat had me craving office time with the sweet embrace of climate controlled air conditioning. It’s nice to be back to the near Seattle perfection of low 70s with intermittent showers for a change, though I did get more damp than I bargained for on my way to brunch this morning.

I lost a couple more fish, but I’m not giving up yet. Olivia didn’t make it through vacation, but the symptoms had been starting show before I took off. I attempted to bounce back w/ Victoria and Angelica, a couple of smaller calico fantails. Angelica only made it two weeks. My latest theory relates to the tank water getting toxically alkaline. This means I’ll need more frequent water changes and fervent monitoring of water levels, but I’m willing to do anything to shake my goldfish death chamber status.

To this end I’ve taken the somewhat questionable step of increasing the tank family size. Victoria is holding strong, as is Franc III, who is awesome. He’s my biggest snail to date, and for a while I worried he might fight back when the girls picked on him. So far peace reigns. The latest additions are Serafina, the fair scaled sister, and Gissel, our golden fish. I’ve been obsessively monitoring the water levels, and I’m beginning to think they’re messing with me. They’ll get all lethargic and hang around dark corners of the tank, only to break into frenetic outbursts of happy fish activity. Either they’re doomed, as all my fish seem to be, or they think it’s hilarious to send me rushing for the water testing tabs and planning mid week water changes. This is why I should only have pets that are contained within a small habitat. If I had a cat or dog running loose in the apartment, I’d probably start to suspect them plotting my demise. My pets all seem to be devious. I’m sure that’s not projection at all.

Made it to three concerts. Fiona Apple was a little disappointing, but it could have been because of where we sat. It was my first concert at the winery though, and gave me a good idea of how to do it right. Checked out a club performance of Grupo Fantasma. They’re a lot of fun, and I got to chat w/ a band member. Pink Martini were back at the winery, and this time we packed a fab picnic dinner and packed in ample vino. They were an amazing performance despite the fantastic heat.

July also involved a couple if ill advised boy choices, for which I should probably be embarrassed, but ultimately no real harm done. If I can forget them, there’s no reason to dwell.

While it was a good month for catching up with old friends, getting in some quality family time, and becoming even chummier w/ the staff at my favorite local, I haven’t managed to meet any new pals for hanging out with. Starting to worry about the family history of antisocial behavior being carried on through me in this generation.

Here’s hoping August brings some more excitement, fewer embarrassing moments, and some worthwhile experiences.

2006-06-27T12:27:00.000-07:00

WILTING

The heat wave has come early this summer. Hitting the 90s before July is unusual, and much speculation is flying as to whether this means we’re in for a long hot summer or if it’s going to burn out so we get a crappy fall. Hey, there isn’t a lot to talk about around the office.

I look forward to the short, intense periods of summer’s force. I’m not one for roasting myself to a golden brown, at least outside of vacation time, but I love the heat induced slow down that hits the city. Soaking up lackadaisical hours with a trivial book and heading to bed ever later waiting for a breath of cool air to close the day. My clearest summer memories involve trying to stay still, limiting any skin to skin contact and the primary activity to seek out and drink all manner of iced beverages.

Coming to work, with its proficient air conditioning, is a bit of a break, but I can’t shake the desire to get back outside, away from business efficiency and the digital pace. I want to melt into a bar stool or park bench for a few hours and come away with only a slight sun burn and sweat sheen to show for it.

2006-06-24T15:58:00.000-07:00

THEM

I foolishly thought I had deterred the aphid scourge from devouring my basil. Not at all. It’s been growing, if not flourishing, so I’ve been happy to keep it watered and moderately sunned.

Today, as I’m checking on the health of my balcony paradise, I discover my precious herb covered in adult aphids, sucking the life from the innocent greenery.

It’s back to the heavy duty soap spraying. I haven’t lost the battle yet!

2006-06-20T16:57:00.000-07:00

ASPIRING HOOLIGAN

I like soccer/fútbol. I’ve played it and watched it, but I can’t say that I’ve followed it. With the World Cup on this month, I’ve been following every stat and group update. I still don’t fully follow the tournament organization, but I think I’m catching on. The nine hour time change putting the games right during business hours, they’re being played on the lobby plasma screen, and I’m totally hooked.

My favorites are naturally the US and Spain, but I haven’t seen a match that didn’t hold my wrapped attention yet. The hot players don’t hurt either (what? I’m shallow). I’m looking into trading cards and posters at this point.

It really is a beautiful game that doesn’t discriminate on economic and cultural basis. It’s a shame the US hasn’t embraced the sport on a professional level, but it’s good to know that I live only a few blocks from one of the best bars for watching fútbol year round so I can keep up on it all. At least it’s a good way fill time until American football is back in action.

2006-06-18T21:45:00.000-07:00

UNSKILLED LABOR

I have returned, achy and bone tired, from the wilds of far eastern Washington, where my dearest friends have chosen to make their new home. Dayton is an adorable town with sweet neighborhoods branching off from the one stop light main street. It’s got the basics for a simple life and not much more, but certainly seems like a charming place to settle down, if that’s ones goal.

For my part I find it to be a bit too far from the nearest Nordstrom Rack for my taste, drops off the map of any national company cell phone coverage and has no discernable night life from the first impression. Since I’m not looking to settle down anytime soon, it’s not my kind of thing.

I was part of an envoy to help in the home renovation of my friend’s starter home before they move over for good. It was two days of physical labor that isn’t entirely my forte, but I like to think I held my own. Four coats of paint (two primer, two color) on the two story vaulted ceilings covered in acoustic tile have left me with a stiff neck and hands permanently clenched in the shape of the roller handle. On the up side, the house shows all kinds of potential to be great, and I think we took some positive strides in that direction. I’m also taking a long look at plans to own my own place some day and how much renovation I’ll be prepared to put in.

2006-06-16T12:10:00.000-07:00

QUE VERGüENZA!

My parents have been staying w/ me a bit recently due to travel and medical appointments. They are a pleasure to have around and fabulous house guests, even in a place as small as mine. They visited midweek this time, and I had leave for work before they were ready to head off, so I left them with a key.

It was so lovely upon arriving home to find everything far tidier than I’d left it. Dad almost compulsively washes my dishes whenever he’s around. As I was hopping about the bedroom getting ready to hit the gym, I was struck by the horrific realization that my parents had even looked under the bed. Nicely arranged on the top of my laundry basket sat damning evidence of illicit activity.

For context, a few months ago there was a somewhat regrettable, highly forgettable evening that was not nearly as interesting as the evidence would suggest (unless you count the ample evidence of my being severely ill) that resulted in a guest departing without everything they came in with. Finding this parting gift the following morning was as hilarious as it was humiliating, and I kicked it under the bed so as not to think about it.

Never look under the bed! Things are sent there for a reason. Either to be hidden or forgotten. I can only hope my parents have learned this lesson. Or they just think they’re being hysterically funny. With dad I can never really tell.

I’m being haunted by a pair of tatty Jockeys.

2006-06-15T11:20:00.000-07:00

ESTOY LIBRE!

It seems like any other day. Just cruising the internet when I should be working. The norm. With hesitant key strokes I have just made the final electronic payment on my consumer debt. My credit cards are PAID! OFF! COMPLETELY!

(With the exception of the AMEX revolving credit, but that totally doesn’t count as is paid off each month. Still awesome!)

Like many young Americans, this debt has followed me since college, reaching an unsettling high point when the Ex and I were combining our debt for better interest rates. (I was young and dumb, whatever.) I had begun to doubt I would ever shed it, but last summer my resolve was reset, thanks to fairly steady and reliable income. An extra boost from the tax return has allowed me to obliterate my consumer debt just in time to start making monthly payments on my post grad school student loans. Sure it’s basically a trade from one to the other, but student debt is so much better than consumer. With a comfy interest rate locked in last year before it all went to hell w/ the Fed, I’m sitting as pretty as can be expected.

Next thing you know I’ll be setting up a retirement fund. Fantastic!

2006-06-11T17:06:00.000-07:00

GENE ASTAIRE

The first wedding in my generation of Roemers came off quite smoothly this weekend. My cousin looked radiant, and showed no signs of all the stress I know revolved around the event. The ceremony was sweetly located on beach in the south sound, and the reception was fun even without alcohol.

Since I’m moving into my roll as the family spinster, and couldn’t drum up a date for the occassion, I was tasked with transporting Granny and Auntie to and from the festivities and manning the guest book at the reception. The taxi services went smoothly, though the drive was even longer than I’d expected at nearly two hours each way. The guest table I shirked a bit, but it wasn’t entirely my fault. Due to having the family photo session immediately after the ceremony, on the beach, while most of the crowd moved on to the snacks and dancing, everyone was well past the signing in by the time I was ready to man my post. Considering the guest book table was down hall from the party area, near the door and the restrooms, I couldn’t really bring myself to stay there much past twenty minutes. A few people filled out the cards with well wishes, and I tried to keep an eye on it while sampling all the food and dancing with dad. Generally, I’m sticking with timing being at fault for my neglect rather than my dodging the wall flower station.

Like most weddings I’m emotionally invested in, there were several bright moments. The ceremony setting was entirely charming, granny was escorted down the beach by a most solicitous groom and most fantastic of all, my dad is a spectacular dancer.

Dad was have a good health day in general, but on the dance floor, he positively lights up. He kicked off his sandals because they were slowing him down and spun me, my mom and his sisters around the floor like a barefoot pro. He said I was a quick study with the East Coast Swing, and even if he was just being kind, it’s the high point of my birthday/grad week. Now my daddy is not only the smartest and most athletic man ever, he’s the most graceful too.

Yeah, I’m daddy’s girl. What of it?

2006-06-09T13:05:00.000-07:00

THE AQUATIC PLAGUE CONTINUES

Perhaps I should not attempt to keep fish, if at the least to keep PETA from knocking on my door. I’m a pox.

Jacqueline has passed away. It was more sudden than Veronica, but the symptoms were the same. On Tuesday evening she was acting a bit strange and only staying in one corner of the tank. By Wednesday, she was listing to the side, and Thursday found her wedging herself beneath a vine of the low lying tank décor only gawping shallowly. On Friday morning I scooped her lifeless little form from the tank for good.

To add to the oddities, it appears Franc has passed away as well. I was hoping he might just pop out of his shell and start sliming about, but several days of no movement pretty much sound the death knell.

Since I have carefully followed all the care instructions I was given at the pet store and searched out online, I don’t know how I can be causing this. My new suspicion is that the store I’ve been purchasing my gals from results in short life spans once they get home. Sure, it’s way more likely I’m the cause, but I’ve got to cling to something.

Now Olivia is running solo in the tank, and I don’t think I’ll be getting her a roommate anytime soon. If she hangs around for another month or so, I’ll reconsider. Perhaps a new snail will be in order though.

RIP Jacqs.

2006-06-08T23:29:00.000-07:00

A SPLASH OF POMP

Despite my diploma having sat on my mantle for several months now, I graduated today. I passed on the cap and gown because they were optional, involved hoop jumping to acquire and are wildly unflattering. Still got to march in front of a sizable crowd, despite it being only a Comm department todo, and indulge heavy admissions of pride and adoration from the folks.

I was less than pleased at being the only graduate student to not fit in the first row seats, thus relegated to the beginnings of the endless stretch of fresh faced bachelor’s degree earners, or at least I thought so until Byung came trotting up from the back of the room at the last possible moment. The MCDM program also feels a bit like the red headed step child of the department with our noticeable lack of obtuse thesis titles in the program. But overall, the ceremony lent a satisfying sense of completion to my pricey education, and I’m glad I took the time for it.

After mom and dad headed on down to the south sound to prep for the next family affair, I wandered my back to campus, via two happy hour stops (Hey, I’m not off work early enough to catch these most days.), for our cohort reception. There was ‘much what are you doing now?’, ‘we should stay touch’, and ‘I hardly know what to do with my free time’ going about, plus snacks and vino. There was a slide show that consisted mostly of photos taken while at the RAM after classes, so naturally it featured plenty of wildly unflattering shots of me and my various shades of hair over the last couple years.

Things wrapped up right around nine, as scheduled, and everyone was keen to get back to their regular lives. I treated myself to a couple drinks at Norm’s, as that sums up my “regular” life pretty much these days, and called it a night. Once again, I’d been prepared for a bit more raucous, but had a lovely time all the same. Story of my week.

2006-06-07T22:37:00.000-07:00

Cumpleaños feliz

My birthday ended up a bit more subdued than my initial plans which heavily favored elaborate bar hopping and happy hour surfing, but it was thoroughly enjoyable all the same.

Lunch plans fell through with my intended fellow surfer, but a day off work is never wasted when spent in leisure. I opted to stroll around Fremont in the middle of a work day and wait for the folks to arrive. For some reason I always suspect that the neighborhood is hopping with activity when I’m off slaving away at my desk, but 36^th is pretty sleep in the middle of a weekday. Sure, people are wandering about, and the business lunch crowd keeps all the fab eateries in business, but I’m not missing all that much trucking down to the Intl Dist every morning. It was a gorgeous day and went for a lovely sushi lunch.

Mom and dad rolled in earlier than expected, so we left dad to rest up, after a brief instructional session on my TiVo remote, and went of for mani/pedis. I’ve never had my nails “done” before, so it was quite a treat. While I don’t know if I’d go back to hygienically questionable spot over the burrito place and I had to fight twitching my highly ticklish feet, it was a positive experience overall. Topped off the mother daughter bonding with some refreshing sangria al fresco before collecting dad for dinner.

Apparently Pontevecchios has become my traditional birthday dinner spot, as we’ve been there three of the last four years. Well, it’s still excellent, and how can you go wrong with having your favorite dish served up by solicitous Italians on your birthday? You can’t, so there.

2006-06-07T22:29:00.000-07:00

BATTERED

My elation over finally qualifying for blood donation has been somewhat dampened by the excessive bruising incurred by my time in the blood mobile. I had expected some bruising at the puncture spot, since they were practically milking my arm by the end. (I apparently wasn’t all that well hydrated, but I’d be damned at turning back after all the red meat and supplements it took to get me there.)

The bruising and soreness now stretches rather obviously down my forearm and a wee bit up the bicep. Rather looks like someone wrestled me to the ground and forcibly withdrew a “donation.”

However, my feelings of success remain undiminished, and I’ll be pleased as punch when I get my donor card. As a bonus, my daddy is super proud, considering donation up there with the height of citizenship, so who cares if I bruise easier than summer fruit.

2006-06-06T10:31:00.000-07:00

SUCCESS!

I did it! I qualified to donate! I probably shouldn’t be this excited about the opportunity to have a sore arm and spend a day weakened by moderate bloodloss.

While I experienced none of the predicted weakness predicted, I still worked a bit on milking it while at work. After all, it is the day before my glorious (that’s right, I said glorious) 29th birthday.

I’m clinging to this victory. After all, I set a goal and achieved it. Enough steak! Hey, they didn’t even have to put it through the spin test. Sure, people who haven’t been turned down for the whole blood donation thing won’t know what I’m talking about. Whatever, I totally rock. So take that and suck on it. I’ve got blood worth sharing, and that’s a victory.

2006-06-02T00:00:00.000-07:00

CH-CH-CHANGES

I have several bundles of photos, packed away in dark places. Oh, there are plenty photos held in albums and frames for general consumption, but these bundles are of relationships gone by. I’m not even really sure where the oldest bundles are housed these days. My parents have moved a couple of times since I lived at home, so they’re likely mildewing in a box somewhere. I haven’t expunged all the exes, just the ones that ended badly, thus tainting the fond memories that should be conjured by the multitude of smiling snapshots. Whether it’s a healing device or unhealthy blocking, I haven’t spent a lot of time or thought on.

The most recently wrapped bundle left a number of blanks in my photo albums and frames in need of filler. I also realized that there was precious little photographic evidence of the past several years, which would seem like a symptom worth noting sooner.

It was during this “reorganizing” I decided I didn’t want blank spaces in my personal history, and I quickly picked up a user friendly digital camera for recording whatever came next. Since I’ve managed to stave off meaningful personal connections and a majority of my recent adventures have been attempted solo, I am the primary subject of my growing collection of people related pics, and it’s starting to appear quite vain.

In that spirit, I present here a quick summary of how my appearance has changed since my last birthday, as well as somewhat embarrassing evidence of how much time I spend mugging for the camera.

2006-06-01T11:43:00.000-07:00

THEM!

They’re back! The aphids have once again found my wee porch garden. Gah!

It’s been a year since I attempted to grow anything beyond a couple of succulents, abandoned in the messy property division of 2005, and my faithful fichus, Crighton. (What, so I’ve named a few plants. I’m not a pet person.) The peppy little potted garden I’d maintained at my previous apartment met a brutal, parched end, and the relocation to Fremont happened a bit late in the growing season to try starting again. At least, I lacked the motivation to take on the task.

The beginning of May saw life brought to my balcony, despite the added challenge of not receiving any direct sunlight, only to be faced by the aphid scourge come June. I will not be bested this year. I will not give in to the creepy, milling swarm. I’ve started with the soapy water defense, in hopes of actually being able to consume my herbs before the end of the season, but I’ll resort to full chemical warfare if need be. I have the supplies and have taken plants down in the battle before.

It is on!

2006-05-30T10:23:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAYS AT HOME

Dad is looking better. Not great yet, and my parents struggle to wrap their minds around illnesses that aren’t resolved with a few days of taking medication. They’re still going to take their vacation though, and Dad’s making summer plans that don’t involve heavy labor with much aplomb.

I’ve also introduced Dad to Gmail and Google chat. He probably hasn’t checked it since I showed hi how to use it, but to be fair, there probably isn’t any mail there anyways. I’ll just have to start sending him stuff.

It was a lovely weekend of sitting outside, enjoying good food and company, and very much like it always is going home. Steph and Jason joined in the lounging and neighborhood park tours. I have a tendency to annex my friends into my family over time because I’ve come to enjoy my parents so much over the years and they’re great to visit and visit with.

All in all, a good, if unremarkable, holiday.

2006-05-26T14:02:00.002-07:00

PROBABLY NOT GOING TO BECOME CRIME FIGHTING ROYALTY

When I was little, around the grade school era, I planned on become a writer. I was going to be a teacher, just like dad, and spend the summer holidays writing novels.

This dream, along with other standard little girl dreams like becoming a marine biologist, international spy and princess, fell by the wayside at some point. Possibly because I haven’t nearly the patience or understanding to work with young people and would surely end up scarring children for life if unleashed on the academic sector. Additionally, my writing “talent” is certainly debatable, and thus far I have failed to show the discipline involved in becoming better, like actually spending quality time writing. Oddly enough, I don’t think I ever dreamed of being 8-5 desk jockey. Will have to reflect on that one.

Anyway, now that the network television season has passed (Yes, I have an addiction, and TiVo only enables it.), I will make it a new year’s, marked by my birthday, resolution to write more frequently. Perhaps I might even come up with some kind of creative direction for my wee, vanity blog. Stranger things have happened.

2006-05-11T14:25:00.000-07:00

THE TINY, IMPOTENT FIST OF RAGE

Life is hard and life is not fair.

While it was hardly news by my junior year of high school, it was a mantra our accounting teacher assured us would make life simpler to navigate and understand once accepted. He would also not be in before 8:45 on Fridays due to golf.

It would seem I'm as poor a student of life as I am at accounting because this is bullshit. I guess I’ve never truly accepted the bitch nature of life and fate. Sure, the cruel and hurtful can excel; what do I care. The success, or at least failure to suffer, is of the undeserving is of little matter to me. It’s when fate decides to take a gut shot at the, all to rare, generous and wonderful souls who have done nothing but make the world around them a better place, that I want some justice.

There should be balance. Karma should mean something. I'm not recommending the incentivizing of being a good person, but if being a good can't bring reward, at least one shouldn't be punished for it. I certainly deserve more knocks than I've gotten in my life, but there are those who are dished more than their share.

If life isn't going to play fair, it can takes its marbles and shove them up its ass. I want to know who's rigging this thing.

2006-05-09T17:06:00.000-07:00

REFRESH

New fish in the tank! New Franc, the mystery snail, as well! And yes, all the mystery snails shall be named Franc. Here’s hoping I don’t have to replace another one soon, because I’ll start to feel quite bad.

Olivia is a pale blonde, and seems quite lively. I have high hopes for this happy little tank family lasting for some time. Franc II doesn’t seem like as much of a go getter as Franc I, but perhaps he arrived in the tank w/ some kind of amphetamine problem, thus his untimely demise.

I’ve no desire for a parade of ill fated aquatic life to parade through my humble living room, so should things going sour again soon, I might have to give up my plans of pet ownership purely for humanitarian reasons.

2006-05-08T16:49:00.000-07:00

RIP V

Veronica passed quietly during the day on Friday. It’s the first tragedy for the tank, and hopefully the last, though with goldfish, that seems far fetched. Hopefully her illness and passing were peaceful. Both and V and Franc are interned near the large rock by the parking lot entrance, and will be remembered fondly.

2006-05-05T16:54:00.000-07:00

TERMINAL TANK

Whether it’s an unfortunate side effect of my being away for five days, or an inevitable tragedy, Veronica does not look long for this world.

She was the first goldfish I brought home, but ever since I introduced her to her new home, she has seemed lethargic and sickly. I’ve made the tank adjustments that are in my power, but she has only declined in health. When I got back she was only able to swim tilting sideways, had a hard time eating and was spending the majority of her time lying on the bottom of the tank.

I’ve doctored the water with healthy fish stuff, but I fear it may be too late. Since Jacqueline appears to be in fine health, despite living in the tank of doom for just as long, I am selecting to believe Veronica was ill when I brought her home, and I only hope I have been able to make her comfortable.

Now, I’m not sure how to proceed at this point. She has been clearly unwell for some time, and I had to put Jacs in a pickle jar to separate them when I noticed she was picking on V. I would like to return Jacs to the tank, but until V either starts to look better or kicks it, I’m in a holding pattern. Is there an appropriate way to euthanize a goldfish? Perhaps I lack an essential sympathetic nature for pet ownership, but I don’t want her to suffer either.

Something will have to be done this weekend. I can’t damage Jacs’ health with improper filtration while V convalesces, and I would like to get back to having a happy fish tank. V will be sorely missed, but it looks like my first fish fatality is swiftly approaching.

2006-05-04T23:50:00.000-07:00

VACATION, ALL I EVER WANTED

I have made it safely back from my long overdue vacation to sunny SoCal. The highlight, and primary goal, of the trip was of course hitting Coachella w/ lifelong pal Ani, but I also soaked some quality relaxation and fun out of a couple days lounging around her house in Redlands.

My glowing Seattle pallor was able to avoid sun damage while hanging out in the ninety-plus degree heat of Indio, CA, but my personal rotisserie session on Ani’s back patio sent me home a bit pinker than when I departed. Here’s hoping it starts to resemble a tan soon.

All in all, it was fantastic. I definitely need to plan long weekends away more often, or at least as often as the budget will allow.

Despite the fun in the sun, it is good to get back home. I’m really not a California girl at heart, and 70º at home is just about the most perfect weather in creation. Thankfully my Emerald City has not disappointed this week. Summer is on.

2006-04-26T16:11:00.000-07:00

ADMINISTRATIVE PROFESSIONALS UNITE!

As I currently make my living in the exotic and captivating world of executive assisting, I often find it necessary to remind my charges about old-school Secretary’s Day, and that a happy admin makes for a positive work environment.

This year, Admin Day is passing largely without notice due to a board meeting falling on the same day. However, with the incredible excess of catered chow brought in to satisfy the decision makers, today, the admins dine like C levels.

It’s the little things that get me through my cube farm days.

2006-04-24T13:13:00.000-07:00

LOW POINTS

Hit a new low in the self destructive behavior pattern this weekend. There are certain memory gaps leaving me to wonder just how embarrassed I should be, but I seem to have come through relatively unscathed once more. It’s a scary situation I’d rather not find myself in again, and I doubt luck will continue to be on my side indefinitely.

My upbringing tells me I should be well into a shame spiral by now, but I feel oddly detached and unaffected. It’s the same sense I’ve had for some time now. Can’t help but wonder if this means I’ll keep pushing boundaries until I find something that causes enough damage to actually matter.

So, if I know my actions are stupid, purposeless and aren’t even fun past a certain point, should I look into getting help? If I know the obvious answers for how not to find myself in the same position again, would talking to someone make any difference?

Is interesting and dangerous a better choice than safe and bland? Will either make me happy? Haven’t made up my mind just yet.

2006-04-18T15:30:00.000-07:00

OW, MY EYE. MY MIND'S EYE!

There are some things in my life, I wish I didn’t know. Not so much in the ignorance is bliss vein, though I do look back fondly on the ignorant days. The stuff I can’t shake tends to be the none of my business, would prefer to rinse my mind with bleach to kill the mental images, kind of issues. Sometimes I unwittingly ask for these disquieting facts, but others are simply foisted on me. Curse my vivid imagination and inquisitive nature.

2006-04-17T12:07:00.000-07:00

NOT A CAT PERSON

I’ve been living solo for a year now. It certainly has its perks, such as being able to sleep smack dab in the middle of the bed, having permanent ownership of the remote control and not having to worry about disturbing anyone when coming in really late, except for the upstairs neighbor who can hear when I slide my closet doors shut to loud and claims an inability to get back to sleep once being so rudely disturbed. There are the occasional downsides. The dishes are always mine, the vacuuming doesn’t do itself and no is around to point out that falling asleep in the armchair is going to make for back problems so I should probably get my intoxicated ass all the way to bed.

The toughest adjustment in going from living with someone to not, has been the lack of company. Thus, I am ready for a pet. Since I know I don’t have the dedication or patience to keep a dog healthy in an urban environment, I don’t really consider myself a cat person, and birds are noisy and messy, I’ve elected to adopt fish. A reasonably sized tank w/ a couple of goldfish and a snail for good measure is just the thing. Though it has been unsettling the number of people who seem to think I am a cat person. Is there a vibe I’m unaware of? Of course these assertions were made by cat people, so maybe it was just projection or a nefarious recruitment plot.

The tank was purchased last week and I brought Veronica home on Friday. She actually survived the weekend, though it looked touch and go when she appeared to nearly choke on a piece of artificial grass left in the tank, but she was still swimming, somewhat lethargically, when I left for work this morning. It’s is also possible that I was overfeeding her, but adjustments have been made. Her roomy, Jacqueline, will be collected this afternoon, and I should be able to fit in a shopping trip to select just the right snail companion for the girls.

I’m sure they’ll quickly tire of my endless prattle about office antics and bar disappointments, not to mention the shoddy housekeeping, but now I’ve got some company beyond the TiVo and iPod. Not that they aren’t excellent companions in their own right.

2006-04-12T16:33:00.000-07:00

DIFFICULT DAY

It’s one of those infamous anniversaries for an event I would just as soon forget, but at one year it’s still raw and unpleasant to think about. I had hoped my life would be different than it is. That it would be so full of better things that the day would just pass without notice. While my life's inventory of improvements is remarkable, the day stood out just the same. I suppose it needs more time and distance.

There is no moping though. Not allowed. Instead I went out and savored all the things that make this year better than last.

Maybe next year the day will slip.

2006-04-09T17:54:00.000-07:00

ANOTHER SWING AND A MISS

“I Tried” That’s the sticker they would give me back in WW when I got turned down for blood donation. It’s a reoccurring theme in my attempts to contribute to the medical world.

I believe quite strongly in blood donation. It’s something that costs me nothing, but could be life saving to someone else. I don’t have a rare blood type or anything, but it still seems like it ought to be useful. Short of paralyzing fear of needles or health reasons, there doesn’t seem to be a reason not to take part. People might question the way funds are used by the Red Cross, but there’s no misusing a blood donation. (At least not that I’ve heard of, but perhaps I’m being naïve.)

However, my batting average at successfully donating continues to slip. Other than the one-year suspension for a body piercing, I consistently fall short on my iron percentage. The Blood bus actually comes to my office building every couple of months now, and both visits have resulting in me nursing a consolatory glass of juice, and few recommendations on how to achieve the 38% minimum iron count to be cleared for donation. They have also let me know that anything over 32% is healthy for women, which is a relief, they just don’t want to risk relieving anyone of a pint should they fall short of 38%. Something about passing out and anemia or some such nonsense.

I thought I was ready this time. I’d been taking my vitamins much more frequently than before, which isn’t to say religiously or anything, and I was eating oatmeal for breakfast. And yet, my count had actually dropped three points since February, leaving me at 34%. Unacceptable!

While my dear friend Stephanie, who is incredibly squicked out by the concept of blood donation, has suggested I just stop trying to donate and move on, I am taking this as a challenge. I will achieve 38% if not higher. Who knows, it might even increase my energy levels and stop me from being such a lazy slob. It’s time to start loading up on the broccoli, oatmeal, raisins and red meat, though I refuse to go so far as to eat liver. Then in accordance with some Internet article, I will also include items high in vitamin C with iron-loaded meals. Throw in some more iron supplements and not drinking caffeinated beverages within a couple hours of iron rich foods, to prevent impaired absorption, and by June 6 I’ll be leaving the Red Cross mobile a pint lighter instead of with a charity cookie.

2006-04-06T09:25:00.000-07:00

LOCALIZED DISTURBANCE

As I find myself hitting an age when it's flattering to be carded, I've noticed a distancing within my group of closest friends. Either through life experiences resulting in life-course corrections or actual geography, drifting has occurred.

It's not all bad, and arguably a simple fact of life. I have many friends who I may not see for an age, and just as easily pick up where we left off. Similarly, modern communications make it easy to keep people close in spite of distance.

However, I find myself faced with an unfortunate reality. With my closest friend daring to abandon Seattle and take on new adventures in the wilds of eastern Washington, I find myself without a "local emergency contact." It's the contact info employers, apartment managers and insurance companies want on hand to call up in case you become incapacitated. Locally, I do have some good friends, lots of lovely acquaintances and even a smattering of relatives, but I'm uncertain if I could or should expect any of them to leap into action if something awful happens in the middle of the night.

There are people in life who will jump when the Friend signal hits the sky, and I have found those are the people you don't even have to ask if they are willing to fill that space in your paperwork. You just know. Currently, my space is blank, and it feels kinda lonely.

2006-03-26T14:02:00.000-08:00

The good, the bad and the trivial

I am of two minds when it comes to online publishing.

On the one hand, it represents the true democracy of the web, taking power from knowledge gatekeepers and continuing the tradition initiated by the printing press of bringing information to the masses.

The flip side, for as transient as it seems on the surface, it is a permanent medium. Nothing ever truly disappears once it makes it’s way online, and the implications of this archival and summative nature are yet to be fully realized. Everyone from employers to prospective dates can mine the aggregate information of your online existence, and the crossover of offline to online live becomes ever more common.

While I have little desire for the musings of my twenty’s to follow me the rest of my days, I also choose to take the optimistic view that participation in the online community is more good than evil. Digital media is my field of study, and if I plan to make it a career, it seems wise to do more than just observe.

Plus, with friends and family drifting geographically, the web can keep the world small and perhaps prevent me from having as many conversations with the houseplants.